mental high

a state of complete and udder relaxation. this high is better that any that i could get from drugs. it usually happens once every 2 weeks, but this time it was the best. nothing can bring me down. im soo happy. im not even gonna spell check. no negativity, no nothing. you could sware that im on drugs im not sure that im not myself, but this is the weirdest and best thing ever. it feels like you just woke up next to the person you love. (not that i know what that feels like but im guessing) i feel like butter melting away. even if i imagine my worst fear (open water) i feel soo calm and serein. i feel like a leaf drifting in the waves. . .